Tuesday, April 15, 2014


Monday, April 14, 2014
Suddenly she realized that what she was regretting was not the lost past but the lost future, not what had not been but what would never be. A Nice Quiet Place (F. Scott Fitzgerald)
Sunday, April 13, 2014

I should have left everything behind. it’s been almost a year and I haven’t let things go. I still find myself somehow intwined with all this negativity I really don’t need. I guess I should be looking forward to summer, because as much as I just want to hang out with my friends, not having that time will help me move forward. the thing is, I will always care about you, and I wish I didn’t have to explain how lonely it has been, but all this year has taught me is to care less. or not at all

I just want to sleep without trying to accept these demons

Saturday, April 12, 2014



Regardless of how many people I am surrounded by, I still feel lonely sometimes. Because it’s not about having the world’s attention. It’s having the attention of one specific person. Nothing else matters because in my heart, I know that person means the world to me. That’s why in a crowd of people, I still look for you. Maybe one day, you will realize how much you mean to me; you’ll realize that no one else matters to me as much as you do. It hurts to sit here waiting but what else can I really do? One day, one day this loneliness will go away. 

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I don’t. I don’t want anybody else to touch you. I’m silly. I get furious if they touch you. Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell to Arms (via ittybitty-world)

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Don’t date a girl just because everyone else in the room can’t take their eyes off her, or that black dress hugs her curves perfectly. Date a girl who you think about while waiting for the subway. Who makes you want your words to sound like some pretentious asshole who sits at Starbucks all day with a laptop wrote them. Date a girl who makes you think of stargazing in the summer and hot drinks in the winter. Don’t date a girl you can see the rest of your life with, date a girl who makes certain moments of your life unforgettable. Don’t date a girl who if after two weeks she “won’t give it up” to you. Don’t date a girl who if after 6 months won’t give it up. Date a girl who you will wait till the ends of the earth till she’s ready, a girl who you will gladly light the candles for. Date a girl who you will do anything to get that smile that melts your heart. Don’t date a girl who you’re dependent on. Date a girl who makes you more dependent on yourself to be better. (via)

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We all know that feeling, vending machine


We all know that feeling, vending machine

That’s how you can tell that you’re filling yourself with the wrong things. You use a lot of energy, and in the end, you feel emptier and less comfortable than ever. Glennon Doyle Melton, Carry On, Warrior: Thoughts on Life Unarmed   (via absentions)

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at this time last year
i was a mess and i feel
like a mess again
A messy haiku - jw  (via hefuckin)

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There is that part of me, the weakest most vulnerable parts that once masked itself in the hues of strength. My attribute: my love. It was always love that confounds me and when unfounded, releases me but when it is present, it breaks me. All together, all at once, and this is the melody in which my heartbreak shatters. I am weak because I choose love over myself, about ninety nine percent of the time and I choose me when love is no longer able to revive its heartbeat from the depths of my ache. It is my love that hurts me the most, and now that I think about it—it has been the only source of everything I have ever felt whether it was remorse, regret, guilt, or pain. It is because I love that I break myself, what a strange fate that must be.

LOL why do I bother even waking up

I need to leave because nothing will ever be the same

keep moving forward, I promise it will be okay